temple tale #284
a light rain had started when i reached the temple. it was confused. something between a drizzle and a rain. but i wasn’t confused for a change. i left my umbrella in the car. a little rain never hurt anyone…
rainy plastic blue chappals had already arrived. she’s involved with the temple duties now, i believe. strangely, when i stepped inside she was sweeping! ah…! everyone multitasks nowadays!!
i didn’t look around. didn’t make eye contact with anyone. gannu was done with his milk bath. and water bath. and looked ready for me 🙂
i stood right in front of him. bang in the middle. gannu-greedy! that’s what i am…!
gannu smiled. “hogging all the gannu-space are we?”
me: “yeah. sometimes i need all of you. sometimes i don’t feel like sharing. i get a minute or two with you. surely that’s acceptable…?”
gannu kept smiling. i refused to budge.
me: “you know, loving someone is not a choice. not loving someone is.”
gannu: “and so you’ve taught me a lesson today! thank you!!”
the realisation was rattling. and scary. i did my chakkar. came back for my haldi kum kum. only to be greeted by the pandit who insisted on giving me a full spoon of milk charnamrit!
how do i explain to him i’m not good at dealing with “too much”…?
today, while leaving i looked back a few times; only to see gannu smiling, a bit more than usual…
July 30, 2013.
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